My newly acquaint visions suddenly deepened. It was strange to me at first. My life was filled with big adjustments. The will to change was the hardest part. There’s a saying, or there may not be, perhaps I just thought of this now.

“We must change with the tides we are thrown into, we have a choice to either sink or swim”.

I chose to swim. There are many times in our lives where we have to make that choice. Our life pretty much depends on it. In all aspects of our lives we either roll with it or we stay stuck.

A huge part of my healing journey was finding “myself”. I know this sounds so incredibly cliche. However, there is a very deep profound truth to this phenomenon in life. Some come into their lives knowing and many of us don’t. The twists and turns of life are needed. I know I have said this many times before in some of my prior blogs. It’s just so true.

I’m going to be completely honest and vulnerable right now. I love my children, I love being a Momma. I love my husband, I love being his wife. What I didn’t love was not having a sense of “something else” for myself. I never finished college and I became a Wife and Momma in my early twenties. I was always so lost during many times of my life. There were days where it was draining for my soul. I’d hide it deep within myself and just keep it there.

I am forty-three. I have four boys and one girl. My oldest is turning twenty-one and my youngest is turning twelve. I sometimes wonder if they saw the deepened ponderous moments in my life where it may have looked like I wasn’t happy. I sometimes wonder if those were the days where I’d hug them a tad bit tighter or vise versa. Truly, I am always happy. I found happiness in being their Momma. In a way they saved me and they probably do not even realize that.

I grew with my children. I learn from each and every one of them everyday. They are all little refections of myself. In their own ways, of course.

I bought myself two mugs yesterday to add to my collection. If you don’t know, I love mugs. One of them reads, “Happiness comes from within”. The other “Follow Your Own Path”. They are perfect. I saw them and my aura lit up! I am using one of them right now as I am sitting here typing away at this blog. They are daily reminders for me as I am always changing and always evolving within myself.

You see, our tides are always changing. When I say this I am imagining standing in front of the ocean watching the tides come in. This is in fact one of my favorite things to do. There are certain times of the day where they are high or low. Just like our life. We go through highs and lows all the time. We have a choice to either sink or swim. I chose to swim. I let the tides take me to where I was meant to be. My kids are growing up with a Momma who has learned so much. I am open with them about a lot. They know I am still finding my way at times, and that is okay. They truly are my biggest fans and they are always rooting me on!

Love & Light, Always!