That face. A face I knew and knew very well in my younger years. His face lit up the room and still gave me the same butterflies in my navel that I had felt many times before. There he was. As clear as the bright blue sky I was breathing in just thinking about all their younger days together. There he was just a few feet away.  “Wake up”, I said quietly to myself, but only this wasn’t a dream. Was it a nightmare? Perhaps it might be. Then again maybe it’s finally a dream she had always dreamt and it’s finally coming true.

I quickly stumbled my way out of his sight and prayed he wouldn’t even recognize me. It’s been so many years. If he still felt the same way about me as I did him, he will know who I am. It was a soul connection that I can’t quite explain. We were so young yet so in love. I am still wondering how in the world he found me. I moved hours away from where we grew up and he showed up with Florida license plates. My mind quickly went to social media. Could I have had a stalker all this time? My Dad always warned me to be careful what I was posting! I always made sure my posts were private and I never accepted friend requests without taking deep notice. He’s here, I’m here. I guess we shall see what happens.

It was time to go, the sun was setting and the kids were starving! I promised them a fire and marshmallows for desert after dinner.  I was  intending to enjoy the last couple weeks of summer as best we knew how and without any drama.I had way too much to think about. We aren’t teenagers anymore. I have children to think of. If it were just myself involved I probably would have just jumped into his arms and stayed there forever seeing him up close and personal by the lake. There was that deep pounding in my heart again and the quivers running down my spine. That’s what he did to me. With every thought I felt his touch, like it was just yesterday. Just the thought of him drove me insane. In these moments I feel like a teenager all over again, as if life never took us in different directions and our love never died.

The children were asleep and it was a perfect night to sit outside with my tea and a good book. My neighbor was kind enough to put decent lighting out back so I can sit on the porch. Reading outside at night was no longer an issue for me. That made me very happy! The fire was till burning from the kids fire we did after dinner. I learned really quick how to get a good fire going! The night was young and the sky was in it’s perfect form. The stars were shining as bright as could be. I just sat there staring and wondering into the night. Vishnu had come by to sit and just stare.I saw him in the corner of my eye waiting for me to catch a glimpse of him. I knew in that moment there would be a message coming through that I needed to hear. Every time he came by chills were sent through my body and I’d hear a little voice whisper in the wind. I was used to it by now and knew how to tune in. “it’s okay, It’s okay to move on,” I heard. In that moment I didn’t know what to think. I just don’t know what to make of this situation. I guess time will tell. Day by day, moment by moment. What is meant to be will be. I whispered back, “Thank you, I love you forever and always”.

Until next time…

Love & Light, Always!

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