I let everything sink in. My brain was on overload and I needed to just let this all go for a moment. I listened to the advice of my mother and my neighbor, I just needed to allow myself to clear my mind, relax and come within. My children truly were my first priority and I couldn’t let anything get in the way of that. After all, we were finally getting used to our new life here in the town of my dreams, our dreams.A life that we have built for ourselves. They were finally happy. I was finally happy and at peace. It really wasn’t easy getting to this place. It took a lot of work. Together, my children and I made this happen.

I called everyone in after our first day of school here on the home front. Dinner was just about ready and I knew they must have been starved by now! Just as I was getting dinner on the table I heard the messenger app ding. I had an unknown message from someone who was looking to send me a message. We weren’t “friends” so the message went into an unmarked folder. I opened the message and the woman in the profile picture looked very familiar. As I zoomed in closer I realized it was the nurse from the hospital. My immediate thought was how social media made it way too easy to be found! With a strong sigh and a heart that already knew what this was about, I opened the message. It read, “I am sorry for this, I don’t mean to be too forward with this and I know that I barely know you. I saw the look in your eyes and how deeply you care for this man. He felt you in the room and asked if there was someone in there the other day. I didn’t know how to answer him.”

This is just wonderful. In that moment I wanted to block, delete and take all my social media down! Instead, I left her a quick note, closed my phone and figured I’d wait to hear back from her. Of course, the thoughts in my mind were now racing and I was wondering if I should have just ignored it all together. The kids came flying through to eat and I had to leave things be. I didn’t want anyone catching on to the look of fear that was probably washed over my aura at the moment. I felt unsettled. I couldn’t explain it to myself. I couldn’t get the thoughts and emotional turmoil out of my mind. Was it turmoil or was it a feeling of just embracing what was about to become. There was no controlling this situation anymore, I had to just let it be. I told myself over and over to just let things be. Then I remembered what my Momma had always told me and the reminder she left me with after I went to the hospital that day to see him. I obviously went there for a reason. It was my heart that led me there. The heart wants what the heart wants.

We finished dinner and decided to take a drive down to the lake for some evening fun. They wanted to bring their fishing poles, I happily agreed. I made sure to make the special bait we used as kids. Bread, water and corn!  It was a childhood favorite for my sisters and I when we used to fish nearby in our local park. My Momma always made it for us and we always caught the biggest fish in the lake. Oh, the good ole days! Watching my kiddos want to do the same was warming my heart. This life we have built here was incredible!

We pulled up and I saw him standing by the lake fishing. What?! How could this be? I thought about the message that was sent by the nurse. I never asked any questions or anything like that. I figured he was still in the hospital. I also never received a reply back from her either. Going by how he looked the last time I saw him I figured he’d be there a while. A thought crossed over that he may not even get out. He was in really bad shape. Healing miracles do happen! I have read about many human experiences regarding tragedy where scientists and doctors cannot explain the miraculous recoveries. I unloaded the truck and gave the kids their poles and told them to get themselves set up and I’d be there in a few minutes. They had this down pat by now! I needed some time to think about how in the world I was going to handle this. It was too late to turn around and go home, besides what would I tell them. I need to surrender to the fact that at this point my universe is literally pushing him in my direction. He is in front of my face, healthy and walking distance from my children. I sat there looking and watching. I caught my children take a few glimpses in his direction too. He didn’t look over at them. I am sure he is just as nervous as I am.

As I sat there in ponderous, wondrous moments our past came sweeping in like the brightest firefly through the night; guiding me to places where I can only imagine. I was getting flashbacks of our teen years and how he made me feel. I took one look over in his direction and we made eye contact from afar. In that moment I felt his soul through his eyes, even from the distance that separated us. I was already in his arms embracing every moment being near him, listening to his heart beat up against my chest. It was as if our souls were once again intertwined like magic. I think back and wonder if I could have ever imagined things would happen this way if I were to plan anything. Noting in my life was planned, never. That’s just not how life has always worked out for me. I closed my eyes and took a very deep breath in and just let my breath flow into the air as if I knew what was coming next. A new chapter in our lives that I felt within my heart and soul was about to present to us.

I saw my daughter running to him with a tangled fishing line. I heard him ask her if she needed help. I figured this was my cue to head on down to the lake. As soon as I got down there we caught eye contact, this time only a short few feet away from each other. My daughter was just inches away from him and looking at him like she’s known him before. I immediately felt those butterflies arrive and I can only imagine how I looked. “Momma, she says! Do You know him?”

Until next time…

Love & Light, Always!

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